45: Chapter 45 Jiang Yingxue's Heartbreaking Regret

Qin Ge left, flirting with Mu Xinyi right in front of Jiang Yingxue as they walked away.

At that moment, Jiang Yingxue's mind went blank, all thoughts vanishing.

Like a walking corpse, she stood there, wooden and dazed.

After standing in a daze for a full quarter of an hour, Jiang Yingxue finally regained a shred of sanity.

She stopped crying, and the glistening tears in her bloodshot eyes were forcibly held back.

"First it was Lin Xiaojin."

"Now there's another one, Mu Xinyi."

"Qin Ge isn't worth it!"

"He isn't worth my tears."

"I still have Grandma!"

"I don't need Qin Ge. I, Jiang Yingxue, can live just fine on my own!"

Jiang Yingxue's mind was exceptionally clear.

Deep down, there was no longer any emotional fluctuation.

It was as if her emotions had been put under a Seal, turning her into a walking corpse.

She returned to the intensive care ward and began handling the discharge procedures for the Old Lady.

Once completed, she took the Old Lady home.

Back at Yunshan Villa, Jiang Yingxue held the Old Lady's hand and pleaded with internal panic, "Grandma, would you come live with me from now on?"

"Your body has fully recovered; you don't need to stay in the nursing home anymore."

"Can Xiao Xue stay with you forever from now on?"

She felt a bit terrified.

Terrified of the scene of being alone in the massive villa once the Old Lady left.

The Old Lady furrowed her brows and muttered suspiciously, "Xiao Xue, did something happen between you and Qin Ge?"

"Why do I feel like something is wrong with you?"

She had raised this granddaughter since she was a child.

How could she not see through her granddaughter's abnormality?

In the past, Jiang Yingxue always urged her to expand her social circle and meet more elderly women to enrich her life in her golden years.

Now, why did it feel like Jiang Yingxue was like a child who had been wronged and couldn't bear to be separated from her?

Jiang Yingxue squeezed out a stiff smile and shook her head, still trying to appear bright, "Grandma, what are you imagining? What could possibly be wrong between Qin Ge and me? We're doing great."

"It's just been a bit busy at work lately, and I'm sleep-deprived. I'm going back to sleep for a while."

She didn't know what was wrong, but at that moment, Jiang Yingxue felt exceptionally exhausted.

Both physically and mentally drained.

Her mind was foggy, as if she might faint at any moment.

After just telling the Old Lady, she went straight to the bedroom and curled herself up inside the quilt.

Her two calves, smooth as mutton-fat jade, were also tucked in, wrapped tightly by the quilt.

She was like a frightened hedgehog.

Curling herself into a ball, as if only this could give her helpless self a sense of security.

In her mind, Qin Ge's cold expression kept replaying.

It caused her self-sealed emotions to begin spilling out uncontrollably.

Even harder to control was the heavy drowsiness that washed over her.

Unknowingly, Jiang Yingxue drifted into a dream in a dazed, hazy state.

...

Early morning, the sun was shining bright.

Remembering nothing, Jiang Yingxue drove her ferrari supercar to the company as usual.

Screech—

The ferrari came to a sudden, drifting stop.

Jiang Yingxue opened the scissor door, stepped out in her black patent leather high heels, and walked toward Qin Ge, who was clutching soy milk and breakfast in his suit jacket.

She frowned with dissatisfaction, "Qin Ge, are you annoying or what?"

"With the time you spend bringing me breakfast every day, you'd be better off closing a few more deals."

"Your company's performance is so terrible it's painful to look at, yet you still have the mood to care about me?"

Qin Ge turned back, his eyes filled with deep concern, "Xiao Xue, you like to sleep in and don't eat breakfast, which often upsets your stomach. I'm afraid you'll have stomach problems later on."

Jiang Yingxue looked at the old-fashioned trio of soy milk, steamed buns, and fried egg in Qin Ge's arms and said with disgust, "I have no appetite! You don't need to come anymore."

This time, Qin Ge didn't try to persuade her further.

He just said "Oh" and nodded, "Then I won't come anymore."

Jiang Yingxue wondered, "Can you have a mind of your own? I tell you not to come, and you actually stop coming?"

Qin Ge shook his head, "Actually, this was the last time."

"I like you and want to be with you forever, but you rejected my marriage proposal."

"This shows that you don't have me in your heart at all; you just want to play around with me, or perhaps you're just humoring Grandma. I don't want to get hurt too deeply."

Boom!

The moment the words "marriage proposal" were spoken, memories flooded into Jiang Yingxue's mind like a tidal wave.

She remembered.

She remembered everything that had happened during this time.

Looking at Qin Ge before her, Jiang Yingxue hurriedly took the old-fashioned trio.

She opened her mouth wide, took a big bite of the steamed bun, finished the fried egg in a few bites, and, despite having a small appetite, greedily drank the entire cup of soy milk in one go.

Her eyes red, she looked at Qin Ge, who was so close, and reached out to stroke his temples, her voice choked with sobs, "It's delicious, Qin Ge. I want to eat this in the future, every day."

"Qin Ge, I was wrong."

"I accept your marriage proposal!"

"Let's be together forever from now on, okay?"

Just as Jiang Yingxue's palm was about to touch Qin Ge's face, Qin Ge shook his head with a cold expression, "But it's already too late."

Qin Ge looked at Jiang Yingxue with a pained expression, sighed, and then turned to leave.

"No, Qin Ge, don't go!"

Jiang Yingxue opened her arms in a panic and lunged nervously toward the disappearing Qin Ge.

She lunged into empty air.

Suddenly, the world spun before Jiang Yingxue's eyes.

When she came to her senses, it was pouring rain, and she was on Yingzi's back.

She was still wearing Qin Ge's suit jacket.

She felt total discomfort and cold, shivering uncontrollably.

She remembered; this was the time she had a high fever and was on the way to the hospital, being taken there by Qin Ge!

Beside her was Qin Ge, holding an umbrella and a cup of hot water.

Seeing Qin Ge again, Jiang Yingxue choked out an apology immediately, trying to salvage things:

"Qin Ge, listen to my explanation."

"It's not that I don't like you, and I certainly don't want to play around!"

"I was just in a bad mood that day; I couldn't control myself, which is why I lost my temper with you."

Qin Ge, holding the hot water under the umbrella, gazed at Jiang Yingxue with eyes full of sorrow and disappointment, "But why did you trust Chen Yuan?"

"Why would you rather trust Chen Yuan than me?"

"Could it be that Chen Yuan, who just appeared, holds a higher place in your heart than I do?"

Jiang Yingxue collapsed to the ground.

The pouring rain instantly soaked her through.

Yingzi, who was holding the umbrella for Qin Ge, glared at her, "Jiang Yingxue, you've gone too far!"

"Our President Qin cut off all contact with other women for your sake, yet you went behind his back to befriend Chen Yuan!"

"President Qin spent countless hours learning massage and medical skills for your grandmother's sake."

"And in the end, you trusted Chen Yuan, whom you've only known for a few days!"

"You are truly disappointing!"

Jiang Yingxue shook her head in despair, explaining, "No, it's not what you think; I have absolutely no relationship with Chen Yuan."

"There wasn't enough time, and I had been blocked by Qin Ge, which is why I chose to let him treat her."

"Qin Ge, don't go."

"Don't leave me, I beg you!"

In the pouring rain, Jiang Yingxue ran desperately toward Qin Ge, who had his back to her.

But no matter how she ran, the distance between her and Qin Ge only grew wider.

Until, Qin Ge disappeared before her eyes!

The dream had not ended; it was like a slideshow playing.

It reenacted everything that had truly happened in the past, from her personal experience to a god's-eye view.

Jiang Yingxue witnessed herself ruthlessly tearing apart Qin Ge's dignity time and again.

She witnessed how she had belittled Qin Ge and trampled on his tenderness and deep affection.

This nightmare made Jiang Yingxue clearly realize how selfish her past self had been!

Just as the Old Lady had said, she had never considered Qin Ge's feelings.

If she were in Qin Ge's position, she would also be in despair.

She would be even more furious.

She might even seek revenge!

Yet, after breaking up with her, not only did Qin Ge not take revenge, but he even saved her from kidnappers.

Now, Qin Ge had moved on from this relationship, having found peace.

But she, Jiang Yingxue, had fallen into it hopelessly!

"No!"

"Don't!"

"Qin Ge, my Qin Ge!"

"I'll give you anything, I'll give you everything. Lin Xiaojin, I beg you, give Qin Ge back to me."

"Xin Yi, I'm kneeling before you, I beg you, let Qin Ge return to my side!"

Jiang Yingxue, who had originally thought she was just accustomed to being treated kindly by Qin Ge, saw in her nightmare Qin Ge and Xin Yi as a couple.

And him having children with Lin Xiaojin.

Her eyes were bloodshot with jealousy.

Her stomach churned with heartache.

She was trembling violently with fear.

The one by Qin Ge's side, treated tenderly by him.

The one acting as a couple with Qin Ge, the one having children with him.

It should have been her, Jiang Yingxue.

It was because of her affectation, because of her selfishness.

She had handed over the happiness that originally belonged to her into the arms of other girls.

Within Jiang Yingxue's chest, the emotion of regret brewed like a raging sea, churning ceaselessly.

Watching Qin Ge, who should have been hers, embrace another woman, Jiang Yingxue's crystal-clear tears of regret fell unceasingly.

Regret to the point of breaking her heart.