56: Chapter 56 The Tragic Female Insect's Nobleman 18
A trace of sorrow colored Lu Zhan's face, and his entire being was filled with an inescapable sadness as a faint, low sound escaped from his throat.
"Bo Yisi, I am nothing more than a dodder flower trapped in your palm—pathetic and pitiable!"
The low words instantly exploded in Bo Yisi's mind. His deep black eyes, usually profound, grew moist, and tears slid down his resolute, handsome face.
He desperately wanted to explain that it wasn't like that, yet he could not refute it; Your Highness was not wrong, for this had indeed been his initial intention.
Pain. It hurt so much, an unbearable agony.
Hatred. He hated himself so much he wanted to kill himself.
But if he died, what would happen to the Zerg Egg inside him? Would Your Highness soon forget him and be with Mervyn?
He knew he was dark and despicable, and he knew the harm he had caused Your Highness was irreparable, yet he still wanted to live in a place where Your Highness was.
So at this moment, he could only kneel at the Male Zerg's feet with a heart full of pain and regret, silently repenting, pleading, and hoping...
Thus, the Male Zerg sat while the Military Zerg knelt, and an eerie silence filled the room for a while.
Lu Zhan slowly calmed his emotions and parted his thin lips.
"Bo Yisi, you said you would do anything for me. Then go and have the Zerg Egg removed."
Lu Zhan's eyes were still slightly red, his expression faint and tinged with sorrow, yet his tone was exceptionally calm, as if he weren't speaking of anything significant.
I am not a good father. I'm sorry, my little one. He knew clearly that a hatchling's growth could not be separated from the nourishment of a father.
But he no longer wanted to experience that kind of thing again. Just thinking about it, his entire being recoiled in rejection and loathing; it was unbearable.
"Remove it?"
Bo Yisi, who had always knelt upright and strong, almost failed to maintain his posture. The color drained from his face, leaving it deathly pale. His eyes brimmed with anguish as tears fell incessantly.
"Your Highness, I know I have done many things to hurt you. My sins are unforgivable, and I deserve your loathing and rejection. You can do anything you want to me, but the unborn hatchling is innocent. Please don't do this to it, alright?"
As Bo Yisi spoke, he hurriedly unbuttoned his clothes and pulled Lu Zhan's hand to rest upon his lower abdomen.
"Your Highness, can you feel it? It's right here. Bo Yisi truly knows he was wrong. I am dark, despicable, morbid, and selfish, and I hurt you recklessly. But I still beg of you, don't remove it, please."
Lu Zhan's hand trembled unconsciously as he touched the spot; his hatchling was being nurtured here. His silver eyes seemed to soften slightly, but the warmth faded quickly.
Lu Zhan withdrew his hand with great speed.
"I can't do it, Bo Yisi. Don't force me. Blame its poor fate for being stuck with such a useless and irresponsible father like me."
Just now, Your Highness had softened a bit, which meant Your Highness didn't hate the unborn hatchling. Why did he change so suddenly? Was it because of him? Yes, it must be because of him.
But must it really be "removed"?
This was a treasure bestowed upon him by Your Highness. Given the harm he had caused and the degree of Your Highness's current loathing for him, there might never be a second Zerg Egg.
He barely had time to protect it carefully; how could it be removed? Yet seeing Your Highness so disgusted and unable to accept it, Bo Yisi felt a crushing pain in his heart, as if it were being shredded.
He truly regretted it. It was because he had hurt Your Highness that their hatchling was met with the father's rejection and loathing even before being born, to the point where he didn't even want it.
Bo Yisi suddenly bent his knees and knelt at the Male Zerg's feet with his hands behind his back—a standard kneeling posture for a Submissive Zerg. He then leaned down and kissed that cold, white, smooth instep.
Lu Zhan seemed shocked by the Military Zerg's behavior, yet also appeared lost in the touch of warmth on his foot, staring blankly at the tall and powerful Military Zerg kneeling before him.
Bo Yisi looked up, his face pale and his black eyes wet with falling tears. His face was full of sorrow, and his eyes were overflowing with pleas.
"Your Highness, I am the one who hurt you. Don't hate it, and don't discard it.
Bo Yisi will be your Submissive Zerg from now on. As long as Your Highness does not leave and keeps this Zerg Egg, you can beat or torture me however you wish.
Only... can I be your only female Zerg?"
Abandoning his own hatchling pained Lu Zhan's heart as well, but he himself was already broken and stitched together; how could he bear the responsibility of a father?
Bo Yisi looked at the silent Male Zerg, then leaned down again, repeatedly kissing that cold white instep. He did not look up again, letting his tears fall upon it.
"lord, your Submissive Zerg truly knows he was wrong. My crimes of insubordination are too numerous to record; you may punish me in any way. I only beg of you, let this slave keep this Zerg Egg. Please allow your slave, Bo Yisi, to give birth to your child."
A sobbing voice rang out low. Marshal Bo Yisi, the most powerful person in the military whom all citizens admired and worshipped, was at this moment devoid of dignity, utterly humble, begging for mercy like a dog.
Since the Zerg laws were changed and the status of Female Zergs rose, even ordinary Female Zergs held the status of a 'Submissive Zerg' in utter contempt. Not to mention someone of Bo Yisi's current status and position.
Looking at Bo Yisi like this, Lu Zhan suddenly felt that he was pitiable, and the other was pitiable as well.
"Bo Yisi, do you know? Once, in that manor on Planet Slater, I admired you and liked you."
Bo Yisi instantly raised his head and straightened his body, looking at Your Highness. His black eyes were instantly filled with an indescribable light.
He wanted to say something, but he only saw Your Highness holding an index finger to his lips, signaling him to be silent.
A sudden surge of panic and unease rose in his heart. His intuition told him he shouldn't listen any further, yet his heart wondered if there could still be a tiny, sliver of hope.
The silver eyes seemed to regain the starlight of the past, gazing calmly at Bo Yisi, yet also appearing to look through him toward a distant place.
Lu Zhan spoke softly and plainly, as if the protagonist of the story were not himself.
"But I felt that I had trapped you. You were meant to be an eagle soaring in the sky, yet because of me, you could only occupy a small corner. You could have lived a spirited life on your own, yet because of me, you had to survive under the protection of a Male Zerg.
So I thought to work hard to do something for you, whether as compensation or out of my own desire. I sent you back to the military. On the day you left, you were gentle as usual and even smiled at me. I thought then that I must have done the right thing.
Afterward, you never came to Planet Slater again. Perhaps there was sadness and disappointment in my heart. But I thought it was time to return your freedom, though selfishly, I hoped you would refuse and return the divorce papers.
But you accepted them, and I thought that was how it should be. After that, your promotions came quickly, and I was genuinely happy for you.
When I fell, it wasn't that I didn't care, nor was it that I felt no pain. It was just that my decency, my dignity, and my pride would not allow me to be weak and pathetic.
But deep down, I secretly hoped you would catch me. Even though Mervyn was always by my side, warming me, supporting me, and encouraging me, it only served to make me shatter a little slower."
Hearing only up to this point, the light in Bo Yisi's eyes had already vanished completely. His tears seemed to have run dry as he stared with vacant black eyes, his entire being so dejected that he slumped against the side of the sofa, unable to keep his kneeling posture.
Although Your Highness had not finished speaking, he already had a premonition: he had truly lost him forever.
It wasn't that he hadn't felt it. When Your Highness said they couldn't go back, he instinctively knew he had lost something very important...
The words continued. Clearly, they brought nothing but heart-piercing pain and endless regret, yet he could not bear to miss a single word Your Highness said.